A Purple Balloon

On Saturday it marked the 1 year anniversary of the death of a friend.

A balloon release was held- purple balloons; for domestic violence awareness.

I was not able to go to the gathering where everyone was releasing balloons, so I bought my own and wrote a message on it to her.

I don't even think you know how much someone can impact your life until they are gone.

Image: Balloon Release by Dann Gammekk

I went out to a place in the street at dusk...trying to be away from power lines etc., as i let go and watched it soar up ward, I couldn't help but wonder.. is she gonna get it? where is this balloon really going? scientifically speaking it will get to a certain altitude and pop.

But that explanation is too simple for me, I knew in my heart that it would float up to her.

EXCEPT...

Some wind came and blew it into a tree.

At first i started to tear up, walked back in the house with my head down, feeling pretty dumb, but then i kind of started to laugh.

I mean honestly, that is pretty funny. Nick told me she sent that wind to make it blow into the tree... to make me laugh. to start off my night with a smile. Its like she knew i needed a good laugh.

I was nervous to have some cocktails this night, i didn't want to get emotional, but it turned out to be one of the most fun nights i've had all semester. I can't help but think it was due to the beginning of my night, and the light heartedness of the balloon incidence.

Things don't always go the way you plan, but you adapt to the change,and make the best of it.

Halloween

Halloween time is always an interesting time of the year. About 1 month of this semester left.

Nick and I were Juno and Bleeker from the movie "Juno"- honestly many people truly thought i was pregnant..

Nick even got congratulated in class this morning on becoming a father. It was such a fun costume- warm and comfortable.

Had such a fun weekend with my friends.

Back to a hard week of school. Trying to finish strong.

How do you guys stay motivated this time of year? With thanksgiving coming up, and Christmas shopping beginning?... I just want finals to be over with- (and i want to ace them)... is that too much to ask?

Work Out Diva

You guys probably won't believe me when I say that I am going to stick to my new work out plan.....

That's okay because I have a hard time believing it myself. But with this new found attitude I think I will have a higher rate of compliance.

If i miss a day (or 2)... I'm not going to beat myself up over it, I always have the mind set "Oh well i already missed 2 days, 1 more won't hurt." And that goes for everything. If i have 1 oreo...well that just messed up my eating healthy for the day might as well go to Dairy Queen for dinner. Anyways, i'm optimistic about my new work out routine :)

I have the day off from clinicals and class, however I am going to be cramming out this 6 page paper I haven't started, as well as studying for a test I have on Thursday..

And I will probably take a quick break to run to the thrift store to find some last minute things for my halloween costume. :) Can't wait to show you all what or who I am going to be!

ps- i make the best caramel corn. Let's just say in a house of 4 college girls- It didn't last long.

Tahh Tahh

Insignificant

Sometimes I feel so insignificant.

It is good and bad. It relieves stress, but at the same time makes you feel belittled in the big scheme of it all.

I often feel this way while looking out into the stars, the ocean, a big city skyline.

{photo credit: m.fellegy} *click to enlarge*

What makes you feel insignificant?

Wedding Party v.3 [mmz]

I met Megan freshman year of college. We didn't become that close until sophomore year when we became roommates.

Our favorite memories are from when we lived together. We went on many adventures together, including picking up a cat from some sketchy farm in Wisconsin. I honestly don't even want to share a lot of stories. I think that some are special that just stay between me and Meg.

Like the time Meg played piano in an old dorm meeting hall, while I sang and danced, or that gorgeous red and black checkered couch we picked up in the worst blizzard of the winter.

The countless nights of getting ready together. Spending new years together is also another wonderful memory I have.

Megan and I were inseperable during the summer of 2010.

Even though we have been seperated by distance the last year and a half since i had to move for the nursing program, I still feel inseperable from her.

One of the lasts nights of this summer me, meg, nick and cody sat outside enjoying cocktails at a restaurant that used to be an old train station and just talked. The thing i most enjoyed about that night is that yes we did look back on fond memories, but mostly we talked about the present and the future.

I met Nick because of Megan. To be honest, I don't know if i would have ever met Nick if I hadn't become friends with Megan.

We helped each other through all the drama that comes with college, school, relationships, missing our family, looking back at high school memories, wondering how our lives would end up.

Megan is my best friend. And I could never and would never get married without her standing on my side.

Megan, you introduced me to my husband, to my other best friend, to my soul mate. I am eternally grateful.

Even though this past year has been hard, and our friendship has changed... it really hasn't changed. You are still my best friend. The one I run to, the one i know that will tip my chin up and say "hey, stop, you have me, we'll figure it out."

Can't wait for all the memories to come. :)

King Harry

As some of you know I was a foster parent to the most amazing dog in the world. His name was "rascal" but, after i drove him home from the humane society, my car was covered in hair.

Hence the name King Harry. (harry=hairy.)

I think of this boy often. I miss how happy he made me when i was stressed with school.

It is hard when I want him back so bad, but he now has a new home. Someday I hope Nick and I can have a dog as great as King Harry.

You know how they say you never forget your first love?

Well i think this is true.

King Harry was the first dog true dog that I considered mine that I ever loved.

Our first picture together.... just getting to know one another

This is kind of an out of the blue post. But its strange isn't it?

How we sometimes can't remember what we did, what was said, or how the day went... but you never forget how you felt whether it was good or bad.

I look back at these pictures and I can barely remember how is bark sounded. Things i do remember is how excited and happy he was to see me after class and how i felt the same way when i saw him.

reciprocal happiness.

In other words, i miss him.

I miss his cute prance/hop when he walked.
I miss his whimper.
I miss how he smelt.
I miss having his hair on all my clothes.
I miss my study buddy.
I miss how happy he made me.

I hate the feeling of missing.

King Harry you will always be my favorite.